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[05 Apr 2003|02:18pm]
scratched lip. swollen lip and nose. loose teeth...

great fuckin' show.

(6 have done their will | kissing razors)

[24 Feb 2003|02:47pm]
i just got finished watching the mtv special about the war with iraq.

my god...are people really this stupid?
do you REALLY believe that this war is about oil?

do you not see the chemical weapons aspect? that saddam has been using them on his own citizens? on the children?

do you see any problem with this? at all?

i know i do. i have a problem when people do shit like this.


YES. war will affect us. people will die. american citizens. iraqi citizens. people will die.

no. iraq will NOT attack us back. why? they can't. have you people been so caught up in the anti-war movement that you've not paid any attention to our technological capabilities?

they fire missles at us. big deal. they're disarmed before they get NEAR our coast.
DISARMED. they won't explode.

also...the iraqi citizens.

who remember what happened when we bombed afghanistan? there were minimalistic civilian casualties. this isn't your father's war. we don't go in and blow everythign up. we have more accurate missles. they RARELY miss. we aren't sending SCUDs that are on average 30 meters off target.

there will be very few casualties. less than we had die on one single fucking day.

are we all forgetting what has been done to us?
"i love will smith and britney spears"
"what do you think about the attacks?"
"i think they deserved it."

how much of the world is this echoed in?
too much.
what have we done to deserve it?
fucking tell me.
what did we as a country, or the people who died in the september eleventh attacks do to deserve that?

nothing...fucking nothing.
we got iraq out of kuwait.

and?

you can't forget. what happens when we DO go all out war on a country, which we have NOT done since korea? we rebuild it. yes, lives are lost. but we rebuild. bring the economy up.

we arne't talkign about world war three. we aren't talking about revenge. we are NOT talkign about oil. why dont' need oil. we have enough. do some fuckin' research.

to put it in the terms of people on the scene:
you want us to do as a country the opposite of what you want us to do as individuals.

you want us to talk shit, and not back it up.
fuck you, i won't stand for that.

they've broken treaties. begun working on nuclear arms to attack us ((which we NEED to stop. they will attack us whether we go to war with them or not. do you not realize that!?)). they regularly shoot down our planes.

why go to war?
to back up what we said we'd do.
we said tat we would take measures to strike back if treaties were broken. they were. so we are.

end of fucking story...

comment all you like, i want to argue.

bye

(2 have done their will | kissing razors)

[14 Feb 2003|02:28am]
you can be the life of the party,
and still be the death of everyone

(kissing razors)

suicide... [04 Feb 2003|10:02pm]
what a horrible thing it is...

there isn't a person out there who can care for someone that it happens to, and not be crippled by its affects...


i was spending my time preparing for monday...then i got the news from leah today...
her cousin...

so close to jeffery's...

feb. 10...2002...he was 17...
it kills me to think about it...
but he's on my mind more and more lately...as we get closer...

johnny says he might work...

megan...i got a number of his for you...
it's his mom's cell phone...

they moved...his regular phone is getting connected tomorrow...
then he'll know his new number...

leah might come here this weekend...
she needs me...
like i know i'm going to need her...
it's hard...
on both of us...
the school i'm going to just gets in the way...
i can't miss days...but i know monday will be a killer...

i can remember the entire week...

monday...walking into mr. cate's office...david telling me...he had no idea...
going to bryan's...walking around my little town...with chris and bryan...
zao...waffle house...
the councilor's office...
missing so many classes...
checking in as a guest..
to go see talan...
seeing him looking so numb...
laura...alex...
jeriah...chris...bryan...johnny...megan...heather...
i barely saw jake...
eating biscuits...from johnny...
or well...at least the sausage from the biscuits...
we couldn't sit in our spot...too goddamned much...

the funeral will be this saturday...
i can only imagine what her week will be like...

when chris ((my cousin)) killed himself a few years back...we weren't that close...
my dad was the only one that went...
flew out to oklahoma...from atlanta for it...

valentine's day...the funeral...it was hard...
i always hated that day anyway...
goddamnit...
i miss him...
i wish i could just go have one more morning...sitting in that hall by his side...

i have to be strong for leah...i have to stand tall...
can't have to lean on people...

it's so close...
but she needs me now...

just like i need her...

(kissing razors)

[01 Feb 2003|10:34am]
there ya go bert...
you can comment...


have at it...

(1 have done their will | kissing razors)

what kind of a dumb motherfucker prank calls? [25 Jan 2003|12:59am]
oh yeah...the bert kind...

grow up...

(5 have done their will | kissing razors)

[18 Jan 2003|12:59pm]
Xethereal wrathX: why the fuck did you do that?
xlike a boy does: meh, i was pissed
Xethereal wrathX: for what?
xlike a boy does: BECAUSE?
Xethereal wrathX: you went on my journal and left some bullshit entry...
Xethereal wrathX: so you went into my email, got my lj password and deleted about 40 of my fucking entries?
xlike a boy does: pretty much, yeah
Xethereal wrathX: those were MY PERSONAL thoughts...what gives you any goddamned right to do that?
xlike a boy does: nothing gave me the goddamned right
xlike a boy does: i did it just because
Xethereal wrathX: because you're cool like that...right?
xlike a boy does: pretty much, yeah
xlike a boy does: and you're a whiney fucking bitch
Xethereal wrathX: if you don't like me whining, then why the fuck read my journal?
xlike a boy does: entertainment:-)
Xethereal wrathX: how is it entertaining if you're just going to be a dumb cunt and bitch about it?

(3 have done their will | kissing razors)

[17 Jan 2003|12:21pm]
xlike a boy does: i went through jeffs journal and deletd a ton of entries

Auto response from copewithmenow: my bed is so cold and lumpy.
....laying back in bed.

xlike a boy does: get back NOW
xlike a boy does: hehe

(1 have done their will | kissing razors)

[31 Dec 2002|06:33pm]
New Year's Project

Your hands didnt move
well neither did mine.
New Years will bring
so much to say
but nothing comes out right
both of us left without words
both of us lost in this world
it's softer than ever before.
And you were the outline
of everything you would become.
The keeper of these hands.
To hold you now
it is a far cry more than anything that I deserve.

I'm waiting to give you whatever the world may bring
I'd give you my life
cause I don't own anything.
It seemed like the bottom was all that I had until now
I'd give you my life
if you'd give me yours somehow.

Your hands didn't move
well neither did mine
New Years will bring me to you.
I'm waiting to give you whatever the world may bring
I'd give you my life
cause I don't own anything.
It seemed like the bottle was all that I had until now
I'd give you my life
if you'd give me yours somehow.



i love you leah...you are my life, my breath...my world

(1 have done their will | kissing razors)

whoops... [31 Dec 2002|02:13am]
my last entry was a mistake...i posted the wrong hoodie...this si the one that I made...

http://customink.com/cink/r.jsp?E=lynnxchaos%40netscape.net&F=edgeskull

once again updated...this time i just centered the writing on the back, thanks to a suggestion by christen ((uglysquaregirl))

ok..byebyenow

(5 have done their will | kissing razors)

Xtrue fucking loveX [29 Dec 2002|09:32pm]
Xlove is denialX: so...can i ask the dreaded question?
copewithmenow: no you cannot lick my armpit.
Xlove is denialX: haha...
Xlove is denialX: you're funny...
copewithmenow: of course i am.
copewithmenow: but no you cannot
Xlove is denialX: so...what does all this mean?

what lick your armpit?
copewithmenow: but you can be my boy again.
Xlove is denialX: aww...YAY!!!

(kissing razors)

[29 Dec 2002|06:56pm]
[ mood | blah... ]

you do love me...

but only until i care?

fuck that...


for anyone that cares, i'm home...bored as shit...and haven't gotten any of the mail i'm expecting yet...

(kissing razors)

[28 Dec 2002|12:22am]
whew...

shit's winding down...thank god...

my hopes were right...
she does love me...
she was just afraid to say it...
which is understandable...

i love you leah...
and i miss you like the world...

every second that i'm not talking to you...my heart dies a little more...
and every second i am talking to you, i fall even more in love...

i'm sorry for everything...
i love you...

(1 have done their will | kissing razors)

hmm... [27 Dec 2002|02:28am]
just wondering...

does it piss anyone else off when bitches think it's cool to make fun of edge, just to make themselves feel better about their drinking habit?

or how about people who think that edge kids have no right to be elitists?

why the fuck not?
i've made the better decision, and i'm goddamned proud that i'm not fucking myself over...

nice people are wonderful...
friends are great...

i don't deserve the people that i'm close with...

i wish i could be there for you all...not be so absorbed in what's going on with me...

if any of you ever need ANYTHING...EVER...
dont' be afraid to ask...

i love you all...i'll give the world away if you need...

izzy...i love ya kid...
i hope things go well for you...

night kids...

i still love you leah

(kissing razors)

[26 Dec 2002|04:55pm]
love is unconditional...

that means if someone fucks up, you forgive them, and go on...

also...
don't take sides...dont' give me shit...
especially not if you're my friend...

i know i fucked up...
don't give me shit for it...YOU have no goddamned right...so back the fuck off...

(1 have done their will | kissing razors)

[26 Dec 2002|02:05pm]
i have 200 bucks to blow...

i need a mall...

fast!

take away this pain?

please?

anyone?

-crickets-

(7 have done their will | kissing razors)

[26 Dec 2002|01:53pm]
fuck you, and fuck YOU harder...

i fucked up...yeah...
so did you...

love is forgiving...


does ANYONE that reads this think that you can love someone if you can't forgive them?

love is infinitely forgiving...

if you ever loved me like you claimed you did, then you'd be able to forgive me...

even once...

but nooo...you can't even do THAT, can you?

why?

because of other people?
because people other than me have made you feel bad?
they've made you feel like an outcast?

how in the FUCK do you think i've been feeling my entire life?

and then you rave about feeling "last"? because you want to feel liek you've done nothing wrong for once?

HORSESHIT!!!

stop your fuckin' pity party and get with the real world

(3 have done their will | kissing razors)

[26 Dec 2002|11:46am]
someone cheer me up...

please...

i know it's all my fault...

but i'd like some cheering up...
please...

i feel like death...

(kissing razors)

Million Miles to Montreal (Halifax) [26 Dec 2002|11:29am]
Dear Sam (Leah)

i'm sorry i pushed you away, from everything we had, even me,
i couldn't ask you to wait forever
but that doesn't mean my feelings have changed
everyday your face gets clearer
regret is the burden i carry from here to me grave...

this distance is the knife in my heart...

let him (her) know the treasure (s)he has...
dont' let him(her) make my mistake...
forever is never too long to wait for something perfect...

i'll be here...

(2 have done their will | kissing razors)

[25 Dec 2002|08:44am]
i used to do stupid shit...

then i found out what it's like to lose her...

so i stopped doing stupid shit...

but it made me lose her anyway...



fuck

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